I am so not band leader material. Someone please take over my job! It's not easy leading a band consisting of 3 guitarists, 2 keyboardists, 1 bassist, a drummer and 2 vocalist! That's like 9 people in total.. I just wish that theyd come into the studio more prepared, and i just wish my voice would be a little more consistant.. How can i not sing the songs that i handpicked myself?! Omiegawd..

I am so ashamed..

I feel so paranoid.. I dont wanna think so much.. I just wish my mind would only concentrate one one thing - SCHOOL. My transcription exam is almost 4 days away and im lagging one lesson behind in arranging.. Stupid me.. I feel so stupid! I am STUPID! Just wanna shut myself from the world sometimes so that i wont think of any negative thoughts that come to mind. I wonder if youd understand.. I think one day you wouldnt care anymore.. It'll be too much for you to handle.. Thats why i say im stupid and i just hate myself for that..

I just love how we are with each other. Im so used to our "closeness" or lets say, our everyday contact with each other that its so weird not getting to hold ur hand for at least 24 hrs. It's a paranoid feeling coz ive been seeing too much of you.. This is bad.. Blah blah blah blahhh,,,

Stop it Ev..

Alright,, Seesha-ed with Nick and Marcus after jamming today.. It was quite a great experience, but it just needed a bit of alcohol to make it an even better experience.. Nick was talking about how bad the service was at times.. (It was his usual seesha chill-out place) They'd take a longer time to serve chinese than malay customers. Wanted to chill longer, but i didnt think it was a good idea to stay out that late without Trav there with me.. Better to be safe than sorry! :D Grr.. Damn shagged.. Alrite! Time to head to dreamland!

I can never live without you.

I am so not band leader material. Someone please take over my job! It's not easy leading a band consisting of 3 guitarists, 2 keyboardists, 1 bassist, a drummer and 2 vocalist! That's like 9 people in total.. I just wish that theyd come into the studio more prepared, and i just wish my voice would be a little more consistant.. How can i not sing the songs that i handpicked myself?! Omiegawd..

I am so ashamed..

I feel so paranoid.. I dont wanna think so much.. I just wish my mind would only concentrate one one thing - SCHOOL. My transcription exam is almost 4 days away and im lagging one lesson behind in arranging.. Stupid me.. I feel so stupid! I am STUPID! Just wanna shut myself from the world sometimes so that i wont think of any negative thoughts that come to mind. I wonder if youd understand.. I think one day you wouldnt care anymore.. It'll be too much for you to handle.. Thats why i say im stupid and i just hate myself for that..

I just love how we are with each other. Im so used to our "closeness" or lets say, our everyday contact with each other that its so weird not getting to hold ur hand for at least 24 hrs. It's a paranoid feeling coz ive been seeing too much of you.. This is bad.. Blah blah blah blahhh,,,

Stop it Ev..

Alright,, Seesha-ed with Nick and Marcus after jamming today.. It was quite a great experience, but it just needed a bit of alcohol to make it an even better experience.. Nick was talking about how bad the service was at times.. (It was his usual seesha chill-out place) They'd take a longer time to serve chinese than malay customers. Wanted to chill longer, but i didnt think it was a good idea to stay out that late without Trav there with me.. Better to be safe than sorry! :D Grr.. Damn shagged.. Alrite! Time to head to dreamland!

I can never live without you.